on getting up

It is in the most difficult times that you see yourself, broken into pieces, like a shattered glass on the floor. Then you look at it like,

“This was where I went wrong,” and

“This was where I made wrong decisions.”

You pick it up carefully, keeping in mind not to touch the sharp edges. You look at the glass and see yourself in those situations, then reality hits you and your reflection starts to glare. This is you now. What can you do about now?

It’s not easy as you think it would be, but keep in mind that you are not alone. Your friends, though you’re not keeping up with them constantly, doesn’t mean they’re not there for you. They will always be. You just have to open up and allow them to listen. Your family, sure, they can sometimes have judgment, but they are up for some talking. Lastly, you have yourself. You are lucky that you are whole, and you are alive. There’s hope in your heart and you are still looking forward to the great things that are yet to come. Give yourself time to pause and reflect, seek for guidance, and pray for directions and wisdom to discern the things that are being unfolded to you, if they are from the Lord.

How many times did we hear the phrase, “It is okay not to be okay.” Your feelings are valid, but it’s not an excuse to stop. You pick up the broken pieces, bring them together and continue where you left off, but this time, better and stronger.

Everything is temporary, even the sorrow that you carry. – The Maine, Flowers on the Grave

the truth

It was a quick transition, from together to alone.

It wasn’t as I imagined, it was more like finishing a good book. I thought it would involve unnecessary consumption of ice cream and chocolates, crying myself to sleep and not being able to function at all.

Nights are not as cold, mornings are easy.

Checking my mobile does not include messaging anyone if I ate already, or if I’m dressing up for work.

No reason to stay up late. My body thanks me for always getting enough sleep.

 

I still don’t know if I’m going to regret this in the future. But for now, I feel okay. Everything’s fine. I don’t feel like I’m being needed anyway.


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We can help!

Ciao! It’s Chams. 🙂 For today’s blog post, I just wanted to share with you all something that I learned today (real quick!). I came across a video online, promoting this web search engine called Ecosia. 

So basically, Ecosia is a search engine that plants trees using its ad revenue. The system is really easy. You just have to search the web using Ecosia, then all of the ad searches will generate income for Ecosia and they will use all the money to plant trees! Amazing, isn’t it? 😉 Continue reading We can help!

Self-care is necessary

Ciao! It’s Chams. 🙂

I know there are days when you feel exhausted, lonely and sometimes, getting up in the morning is like the hardest thing to do. Don’t worry, you are not alone. I’ve been there too, and though it was not as easy to get away with that phase, I know that you can do it! 🙂 As for me, I practiced self care to help get myself together and be a brand new person. It was really helpful, because you know, the only person that can take the best care of yourself is YOU! So, here are some self-care ideas that you can try! Continue reading Self-care is necessary

Gogh-ing where?

Ciao! It’s Chams. Welcome back to my blog!

If you’re an art junkie like me, you probably know Vincent van Gogh. He’s a post-impressionist painter from the late 1800s. His works are far different than the other painters from his era, mainly because of his play with colors and the life behind his creations. 

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“The Starry Night” – Van Gogh, 1889 // this is a moving version of The Starry Night, to show the life behind this creation.

Vincent lived an unhappy life. He was broke most of the time, he didn’t have a decent job, he jumped from one city to another, his love life was a mess, he had mental illness, he was treated by his neighbors as a freak, no one was interested in his paintings (during his lifetime), and no one appreciated him as an artist (again, during his lifetime). The only thing that was good about his life, was his relationship with his brother Theo. They were really close, and he got Vincent’s back since day 1. Continue reading Gogh-ing where?

Portrait Sessions Vol. II | My sister

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It was a chill afternoon, Ate Tin and I decided to have a little shoot session around our house. This was taken at our garage. I really love our textured walls and how it gives earthy color to the photo.

This is Christine. She is my sister.

There is a lot to say about her. But, let me tell you a story about courage and faith, and how these two words best describe her.


Rainbows

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We were aiming for a weird, rather odd photo shoot.

“It’s been over a month since I gave birth last June 13, 2017, 5:43AM via Normal Spontaneous Delivery, my due was June 19, we have been waiting for that day when we’ll be able to meet our little girl. Even if I have been too scared to think about giving birth.

I started to feel mild cramps at 10pm, June 12, I was thinking maybe those are just Braxton Hicks contractions or false labor since I have read all about them but at 1AM the contractions became noticeable and intervals are getting closer. My husband, Gelo gave our OB a heads up and told us to rush to the hospital as soon as I feel that the contractions are getting painful and at close intervals. 3AM, I told Gelo to help me get a warm bath before we head to the hospital which is less than 10 mins away from home. While he was bathing me, I noticed the mucus plug and excitedly told him that I know I am about to give birth that day. When we arrived at the hospital I was rushed at the Operating Room and all I can feel was excitement and anticipation despite the pain. The resident OB checked and told me I was fully dilated. The nurses checked for Prism’s heart tone but they’re having a hard time to locate it.” Continue reading Portrait Sessions Vol. II | My sister

21 things + 1st month of blogging!

Ciao, it’s Chams!

Today marks my first month of blogging and I’m literally in shock because of the little achievements I’ve made in the past month. I decided to write 21 things about me and a small appreciation post for you all, to celebrate my first month here in the Blogosphere. 💛 Continue reading 21 things + 1st month of blogging!

For my future self

Ciao, it’s Chams!

Today, I made a visual journal for myself. I got this inspiration from Conan Gray’s Me at 17 video. I think it’s really nice to have this kind of keepsake that I could look back on when I get older (hopefully successful) and tell myself, “Remember how you weren’t able to put your life together then? Look at you now!” Continue reading For my future self

Portrait Sessions Vol. I

Ciao! It’s Chams.

If you’ve been following me around, you’ll know that I am really into portraits. I made a post about my portrait photography story before and this time, I’m so excited to share with you all another set of photos I took.

So, I just bought my first prime lens earlier this week and I’m really excited to do some test shots. It is a Canon 50mm f1.8 prime lens that I bought for a very cheap price. As usual, I asked my friend Pauline to shoot with me. We didn’t have any location in mind, so we just randomly took photos on the mall we were in.


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Luckily, we found Timezone and the lights from the arcade were so beautiful! The neon lights really gave out life in every photos. I was really trying to edit like Brandon Woelfel but this is all that I can come up with. Continue reading Portrait Sessions Vol. I

I found some cringey old photos of me

While I was thinking for new blog post ideas, I came across a folder on my laptop. It was a file storage of my photos back in 2013 when I first got my iPod touch 5. I found some cringe-worthy photos of me and other photos which I find very funny and made me feel nostalgic. And since it’s also Thursday, might as well do a little throwback.


The birthday surprise

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It was February (2013), We had classes during my birthday and my college friends surprised me with a box full of cupcakes with toppers which has pictures of my favorite band dudes. I was really in shock when they gave this to me, especially when they chipped in money to buy me an All Time Low Straight to DVD! That was so sweet of them. Aww.


That creepy girl

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(Left) My very first plane ride. Nothing much, but you can see through me how excited I was at that moment. Pure bliss. LOL.

(Right) While we were cleaning at home, we found Mom’s wedding dress! It was all lacey and it looked really conservative. So I tried to fit the whole thing, including the veil. It looked really creepy on me, I don’t know why. I have a scary picture with this dress but might as well not post it here or I might scare y’all away. Haha


Meeting my favorite band

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I met my favorite band, A Rocket to the Moon! It was during their very last show here in Manila (because the band has split up), and I was so happy to finally meet them up close! I got a hug from everyone, but the most memorable was my hug with Halvo (Eric Halvorsen, bassist). I even had a selfie with him. He’s so cute! Me? Meh.


Rainbow head

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I tried on different hair colors during college, I started off with Atomic Turquoise, then Blonde, and finally, Lavender Blue. My parents were really against it, but being the rebel kid that I was, I still dyed my hair. Looking back, I feel proud that I managed to pull this off even just for a short time. 🙂


Crazy friends

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We are Bahamas. But before we get to the part where I explain why we’re called Bahamas, I’ll first talk about why we all ended up being friends. Back in college (up to now), we really love listening to different bands, and because we love them, of course we also love the band guys. And we always have fangirl moments (fan fictions with the band guys LOL). Bahamas = watery/wet. IYKWIM.


Once a grumpy kid, always a grumpy kid

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The ultimate throwback.

(Left) Mom told me I was having tantrums at that moment. I didn’t ask why I was having tantrums but I always find this picture funny.

(Right) Mom, Dad and I on the beach. I can still recall why I look so grumpy here. I was asking my Dad to ride the boat with me but he didn’t want to so I was really upset and I looked like this until we got home from the beach. Heh what a brat.


Since I wasn’t really sure of what to post on my blog, I ended up with this. But, this was fun! I was laughing the entire time while I was browsing through my old photos.

I also want to see some of your old photos and the stories behind those too!

Thank you for reading! 🙂

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