This is Christine. She is my sister.
There is a lot to say about her. But, let me tell you a story about courage and faith, and how these two words best describe her.
“It’s been over a month since I gave birth last June 13, 2017, 5:43AM via Normal Spontaneous Delivery, my due was June 19, we have been waiting for that day when we’ll be able to meet our little girl. Even if I have been too scared to think about giving birth.
I started to feel mild cramps at 10pm, June 12, I was thinking maybe those are just Braxton Hicks contractions or false labor since I have read all about them but at 1AM the contractions became noticeable and intervals are getting closer. My husband, Gelo gave our OB a heads up and told us to rush to the hospital as soon as I feel that the contractions are getting painful and at close intervals. 3AM, I told Gelo to help me get a warm bath before we head to the hospital which is less than 10 mins away from home. While he was bathing me, I noticed the mucus plug and excitedly told him that I know I am about to give birth that day. When we arrived at the hospital I was rushed at the Operating Room and all I can feel was excitement and anticipation despite the pain. The resident OB checked and told me I was fully dilated. The nurses checked for Prism’s heart tone but they’re having a hard time to locate it.”
“I asked the nurse what’s happening she told me maybe Prism is pushing closer to my pelvic bone that’s why. That time I never felt something was wrong all I can feel was the calmness and I have great faith that my baby is doing fine, I believe God is with us, since we can still feel her moving that night when Gelo was kissing my tummy. My OB arrived, it was an easy delivery, I was pushing with great ease…then the episiotomy, then came baby Prism at 6.6 lbs.”
“My OB laid her in my tummy for a while then I saw the doctor held her and was giving her a CPR, that moment I know something was wrong…I was murmuring Jesus help us, Mama Mary pray for us… St Gerard Majella pray for us… I was groggy and sleepy but I was fighting it because I wanted to hear my baby cry… Until sleep found me… I never heard my sweet Nayeli Prism’s cry.
I woke up at the recovery room, saw my husband with my OB carrying our little girl, sad look on their faces. I was still sedated and feeling sleepy when they broke the news that she was gone. She already poop inside my tummy and she ingested her meconium which was the cause of her death, I know the doctors tried to save her by putting tubes to suction the meconium.”
Earth’s loss is Heaven’s gain
“We lost another child and gained another angel in Heaven. I didn’t received an epidural, all I had was IV Sedation, sored muscles and aching body…I was numb from everything, numb from all the pain…no tears fell from my eyes and sleep found me again…”
“One by one people came in to see me inside the recovery room, my husband Gelo, my Mom, my Dad, my sister Charlene..all with sad eyes, no uttered words, they just held me close because our heart speaks the same sadness and grief instead of the happiness that we’ve been anticipating for the last 9 months. Before the nurses wheeled me to my room I requested if I can see my baby again for the last time, I was able to have a moment with our beautiful little girl, our sleeping baby angel, she who has never had a glimpse of light, my dear Nayeli Prism which means I love you Rainbow. I claimed her to be our rainbow baby after the loss of our first angel, Andrei due to miscarriage on my 3rd month of pregnancy but it seems like our Heavenly Father is in great need of angels and so we wholeheartedly offer them to Him who is Holy and Great and All Knowing. We were glad to have a moment with Prism to held her in my arms as if I am cuddling a sleeping baby, to know her a bit more, I carefully studied her face, her arms, hands and feet. I was looking for birth marks but she has none. I kissed her and breathed her newly shampooed hair. I felt the softness of her skin. She was beautiful, soft, and calm…and maybe she’s meant to be an angel.”
Letting go, and letting God
“We prayed for her and still praised and thanked the Lord even in the most saddest times, we know that it is His will. Our human minds cannot fathom His Divine wisdom, our plans is different from His plans. One by one we offered her a prayer, my loving husband held me closer as we rocked our baby, feeling every bit of her, preserving that moment in our hearts, and took our first and last picture as a family…Mommy Tin, Daddy Gelo and Baby Prism… until the day when we will finally held her in our arms forever and meet her again in Heaven together with her sibling, Andrei…”
I am always proud of my sister. She’s a woman of faith, and hope. Her beauty and grace flows from within and spreads to everyone who knows her.
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The italicized words above came from her facebook post.
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camera used: Canon 1100D, 50mm f 1.8