you are ok | mnl

i was on the verge of breaking down, then you came around.

It’s been two years since I last saw The Maine do a show here in Manila. I miss them terribly, that’s why I was really excited when they released You Are OK this year, because that means they’ll be back on tour, yay!

When PULP announced that they’re taking The Maine back to Manila, I was pretty sure I jumped and screamed with excitement! I mean, I’ve seen them a couple of times before, but there’s something with them that makes me want to see them every time they go here in Manila, It wasn’t all because of their charm, but their music, of course.

the announcement

It was during the first half of the year when they announced that they’re going back on tour. My sister and I were actually the first ones to get a ticket, because it’s cheaper when you buy in advance and you’ll be able to secure a meet and greet pass! Now, we wait.

the pre-concert

Apparently, when you’re getting older, your excitement is not the same when you were younger. We went to the venue at around 4:00 (show starts at 8:00) because the meet and greet will be around 6:00. When we were younger, we usually go to the venue 12 hours before the show so we can line up early and get the best spot (near the barricade). Now, we enjoy being at the back of the theater, seeing the stage in full view, more open space to dance and jump around, and you won’t get squished!

I don’t know why, but every The Maine concert completely becomes a reunion for me and my friends. It’s also like that one event where you see familiar people, and it’s fun to see how these people look different from the last time you saw them. Anyway, 4/6 of my concert buddy friends were there, and we’re all very different from the kids we were used to be back then. We now have great jobs, and one of us is in med school! But, the love for The Maine is still the same, maybe even stronger.


It was 6:00 PM when the Meet and Greet line initiated, and we were really excited when the boys went out the stage and gave us hellos and warm hugs! Like I said in the earlier blog, they don’t allow their fans to pay for meet and greet tickets, because why would you even pay money to meet human beings right? So they do this thing as much as they can.


the concert!!!

People were freaking out when the counter started, and I was freaking out too because I feel like they’re about to sing Slip The Noose first! And they did! And I was really happy because they were wearing their all-white suit and it’s the first time Manila saw them fully-geared up like that!!! do you feel how excited i am writing this right now lol)




As usual, they sound lovely, and I was all smiling and dancing and jumping with my friends the whole show. I just enjoyed the whole time and dropped my phone. Though I did put my phone on voice memo so I can listen to it after and reminisce how the show went. What I really like about going to concerts is the experience, being with my friends and singing these songs with them that we used to sing when we were younger, and broke and didn’t know where or what our lives would be after school.


Somehow, The Maine reminded me how to be alive again. Thank you. I am OK. 





hear me gush over the maine

Where do I begin? It’s really hard to open up a story about something so amazing, I just want to dig right into it and let my emotions flow.

It all started off when I met them in February 2011, The Maine was one of the acts for LIV3 show, and we came there for Never Shout Never and We The Kings. I haven’t heard about them since, and my first time hearing them live didn’t really make me a fan in an instant.

The Maine for LIV3. 2011.

Fast forward to 2012, my sister and I were in another concert and they kept on playing Girls Do What They Want and Everything I Ask For while waiting for the show to start. We then figured out it was a song from The Maine and we started listening to them that moment.


Pioneer was their recent record when we started listening to them, and to be honest, it sounded very different from their previous records Can’t Stop, Won’t Stop and Black and White. Somehow we missed their boy-band/punk-rock vibe but as time passed, I started to appreciate its uniqueness and how well-thought Pioneer was. I can definitely say that Pioneer was a make or break for them, it’s either fans would love it or hate it. But turns out, everybody loved it and then came Forever Halloween. My favorites from this record are Identify, Some Days, Misery, When I’m at Home and Like We Did.

Pioneer. 2011.

forever halloween

It was 2013, when they released Forever Halloween, a 12-track album where they showed how great they are as an independent artist. I don’t know how they did it, but it must be their passion to create music that sets them apart from others. My favorites from this record are Run, Love and Drugs, and F**Ked up Kids. Shortly after, they also released a Deluxe version of FH and my favorites are Ugly on the Inside and Bliss.

Run – The Maine, Forever Halloween. 2013.


american candy

Then came 2015, I was graduating in college and American Candy was the best reward there is. American Candy was a subtle and smooth record for me. I mean, all of the songs in this track are amazing! Whenever I listen to this, it takes me back to the time when I celebrate with friends with our graduation and our board exams. My personal favorites for this record are English Girls, Am I Pretty?, (Un) Lost, and Another Night on Mars. 

Am I Pretty – The Maine, American Candy. 2015.

lovely little lonely

After two years, The Maine released their new record, Lovely Little Lonely. It is a 12-track album again, but it’s different than the other records they put out there. The beautiful transitions in this album are flawless especially in Lovely to Black Butterflies and Deja Vu. The vibe they put into this record feels very mature for me and at the same time, all the words will hit you right in the soul. I don’t know, but they really keep getting better over time. My favorites from this record are Bad Behavior, Black Butterflies and Deja Vu, Taxi, and How Do You Feel?

Lovely Little Lonely. 2017.

you are ok

This year, The Maine has released another record called You are OK. They never fail to give their fans quality music and content, which may be why they take two years to produce another one. For us fans, we always look forward to listen to their new music, and waiting for The Maine is always worth it. You Are OK for me is really timely, and it’s like a reminder that whatever hard spots you’re hitting, you’ll always get by. My favorites from this record are Slip the Noose, Numb Without You, and Flowers on the Grave. 


You Are OK. 2019

the maine as a band

I’ve been a fan girl since I was 16, and I followed lots of artists since. But, I already outgrew most of them, mainly because they changed music, and it just doesn’t feel the same anymore. Apparently, with The Maine, it feels really different. It’s like, I want them to be part of my life and, yeah it may sound corny and very cheesy but it is how it is. I met a lot of awesome people because of them, I listened to their music while I was still studying in college, up until I finished school and became a licensed professional, and now that I am in the working class, I still listen to them. The Maine has been really a part of my life and somehow, I want them to be a constant.

What sets them apart is their passion for music, and giving their 100% to the people who supports them. The Maine also do not allow their fans to pay for meet and greets during their shows. I think they are the only band that I know who are like that. And I love them for that.


film photography story | vol. 2

And now, we’re back to photography! 

Back in February, my dear boyfriend gave me a fresh roll of lomography 100 film and I was dearly excited to use it because it was my first time to try a fresh roll! If you haven’t seen my first post about film photography and how I got into it, I will link it for you right here. I used an expired Ultima 100 film there, and I was really excited to use lomo 100 (because it really sounds fancy as well hehe).

Of course, I still used my dad’s old Pentax ME, and it is really in need of a cleaning. However, it still works well and can still capture beautiful things.

now down to the photos

Each roll has 36 shots and I took photos from great places and took portraits of really cool people. But you know, I’m a still newbie and still don’t know what I’m doing so some of the shots were really underexposed. When I say underexposed, I meant you can’t see a thing out of the shots I took. They were all dark.

Good thing, I adjusted something from my camera and saved some shots!

sintang paaralan

I went back to my university to get some documents and grabbed the opportunity to capture the beauty of my school in film.

North wing. Main Building.
Mabini Obelisk and a group of Iskos.
Great Wall of PUP lmao
Pandayan ng isip ng kabataan.
Mabini Obelisk mula sa North wing.
Iskolar ng Bayan, ngayon ay lumalaban.

I hope you liked this photo set. 😉

All photos were developed and processed by Sunny16 Lab.


Love always,


i lived in a city 717km away from home | part 2

So, the story goes. 

Pero bakit parang mas gusto ko na lang i-kwento uli? Haha. Ayun na nga, sa previous post ko, medyo hinapyawan ko ng kwento yung pag-stay ko sa Bacolod for ilang months. Sinamahan ko na rin ng photo dump para complete experience. Anyhoo, eto na ang tea.

bakit nga ba ako umalis?

Hindi naman sa ayaw ko na dito sa Maynila, pero dala na lang din ng gusto ko ma-experience mamuhay nang mag-isa at kailangan para sa trabaho, kaya napunta ako ng Bacolod. During that time, ESL Teacher ako at nag-expand yung company na pinapasukan ko sa Bacolod at nangailangan sila ng Teacher from Manila office na tutulong sa Bacolod team. Low-key prinesenta ko yung sarili ko na gusto ko mag-Bacolod. Di ko naman akalain na kakagatin nila yo’n. So nagulat na lang ako may ticket na daw ako sa susunod na linggo mula nung sinabi ko na “I volunteer as tribute!” chos.

Nung una, ayaw pa ako payagan ng nanay ko. Syempre, bunso ako. Ako pa yung baby sa bahay, kaya parang di pa nila ako ma-let go. Pero ayun, kinalaunan naman, pinayagan na nila ako kasi wala naman silang choice at nakabili na ko ng maleta.

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7PM ang flight namin bound to Bacolod. First time ko lumipad without my family! Such a grown-up haha
Bacolod sunrise

San Sebastian Cathedral. Dito ako nagsisimba every Sunday. Tapos after mass, diretso sa SM Bacolod para mag-grocery!

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View mula sa street kung saan kami nakatira. Lacson Street!

an independent manilenya in bacolod

Dahil walang mommy na magluluto ng agahan ko at maglalaba ng damit ko, in-charge ako sa lahat. Pero sobrang dami ko natutunan. Natuto ako mamalengke ng kakainin ko for the week, gumising ng maaga para mag-luto ng breakfast at baon ko for lunch. Natuto ako mag-budget, at maging mas conscious sa spending habits ko, dahil syempre kahit nasa malayo ako, nagpapa-dala parin ako ng pang-bills ng pamilya ko sa bahay.

Isa sa pinaka-gusto kong ginagawa dun, yung pamamalengke. Sobrang mura ng bilihin sa Libertad, dun kami namimili ng gulay kasi sobrang mura! Sa 300 pesos ko, nakabili na ko ng gulay, prutas at meat na swak para sa isang linggo ko na konsumo. Kapag naman feeling fancy kami, bibili kami ng seafood sa Downtown (Central Market) at magsi-seafood party (and beer) kami ng roommates ko. Favorite ko din mag-ukay ukay with friends sa Downtown kapag weekend!

I mentioned kanina na I cook and prep my own food, eto yun! Pa-healthy kunwari. Pero kasi mas mura gulay kaysa sa karne. Fave ko bumili ng spinach sa palengke na worth 10 pesos lang ang isang balot!

I’m not gunna lie, pinaka-masaya na part sa pamumuhay ng independent, ay yung di ko na kailangan mag-paalam kung saan saan ako pupunta haha. Madalas yan, nag-aaya yung mga friends ko na lumabas ng alas-otso ng gabi at umuwi ng alas-kwatro, lakad lakad sa may lagoon, o di kaya mag-dessert sa Calea. Ganun talaga yung life dun, very chill, hindi nagmamadali. Parang laging hawak mo yung oras mo. Dito ko rin na-experience yung nag-ala Kris Aquino ako sa ka-conyohan dahil sa kalasingan (first time yon).



Christmas Village! Biglaan lang din yung pagpunta namin dyan. Kasi naman, di talaga kami mahilig mag-plano haha
Dessert run sa Bob’s!
Isa rin sa fave dessert place namin bukod sa Calea at Felicia’s, ay Bob’s!

everything is temporary

Syempre, alam ko namang hindi ako magtatagal sa Bacolod. Pero hindi ko naman inasahan na uuwi pala ako agad. Dapat talaga, anim na buwan kami mags-stay dun. So, dapat, April pa ako uuwi. Pero laking gulat din namin na end of January, babalik na pala kami ng Manila. Syempre, masaya kasi makakauwi na kami, pero malungkot kasi nakakapanghinayang, ang dami ko pang hindi narating. Hindi ko masyadong nasulit yung opportunity na sana nakapag-travel ako over the weekend, na sana pinuntahan ko pa yung mga tourist spots na hindi ko pa napuntahan. Syempre, nakaka-lungkot din na hindi ko na makakasama yung mga taong nagpa-saya ng stay ko sa Bacolod.


The Ruins


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DSB, Negros Occidental
During my last few days sa Bacolod, I went on a city walk tour and visited The Negros Museum! 

Got covered in paint sa Dinagsa Festival! Days before kami bumalik ng Manila

Panaad Park
Cafe 9 3/4! It’s a Harry Potter (and all the other nerdy stuff) – themed coffee shop in Bacolod!
Uwian na! Pero babalikan kita. Soon!


Hm, na-realize ko na posible pala na ma-fall in love ka sa isang lugar. Haha. At sana, ginawa ko yung lahat para masulit ko yung pagkakataon na nandun ako. Ang cliche, pero totoo. Minsan naiisip ko na kung bakit ko ba sinisiksik yung sarili ko dito sa ingay at gulo ng Maynila kung meron namang lugar na kagaya ng Bacolod na sobrang sarap tirhan.

Babalikan talaga kita, City of Smiles.



i lived in a city 717km away from home | part 1

It was October last year, when I left home and moved to a new city in the south. I traded the busy streets of Quezon City so I could be in the City of Smiles– Bacolod City. 

Bacolod is not entirely new to me. I’ve been there once when we traveled as a family about five years ago. It was such a nice place, and I didn’t mind going back because of the hospitable people, great food and cool places to go to.

lots of ciaos

It was pretty much a surprise when I told everyone I’m leaving home. I only had one week to prepare, pack, and say goodbye to my friends and family.

(at this point I really just want to go straight to the photos I kept because I’m not a great storyteller and this could get really boring lmao)

I met lots of people while I was there, some of them were my office mates, some are from SFC, and some are from the places we always go to aka the palengke.


now here goes the ~october~ photo dump

These are some of the photos I took during my first month in Bacolod. Not much but I just wanted to share these here! I hope you enjoy!


bacolod (1)

i attended a baybayin writing workshopbacolod (2)i attended a baybayin writing workshop (1)

Ugh, such a bummer. The quality of the photos went bad. 


I’ll post the other part soon, I promise! 😉



on getting up

It is in the most difficult times that you see yourself, broken into pieces, like a shattered glass on the floor. Then you look at it like,

“This was where I went wrong,” and

“This was where I made wrong decisions.”

You pick it up carefully, keeping in mind not to touch the sharp edges. You look at the glass and see yourself in those situations, then reality hits you and your reflection starts to glare. This is you now. What can you do about now?

It’s not easy as you think it would be, but keep in mind that you are not alone. Your friends, though you’re not keeping up with them constantly, doesn’t mean they’re not there for you. They will always be. You just have to open up and allow them to listen. Your family, sure, they can sometimes have judgment, but they are up for some talking. Lastly, you have yourself. You are lucky that you are whole, and you are alive. There’s hope in your heart and you are still looking forward to the great things that are yet to come. Give yourself time to pause and reflect, seek for guidance, and pray for directions and wisdom to discern the things that are being unfolded to you, if they are from the Lord.

How many times did we hear the phrase, “It is okay not to be okay.” Your feelings are valid, but it’s not an excuse to stop. You pick up the broken pieces, bring them together and continue where you left off, but this time, better and stronger.

Everything is temporary, even the sorrow that you carry. – The Maine, Flowers on the Grave

rock bottom

Heto na nga yata yung panahon na nagsisimula na yung quarter life crisis. Ilang buwan na lang, 25 na ko. Napapaisip na ko sa kung ano na ba mga achievement ko sa buhay. Meron na nga ba akong maipagmamalaki? Masasabi ko ba na “I’m living the life!” ngayon? Kasi malayo talaga ‘to sa expectations ko.

Akala ko talaga dati madali lang. Noon, ‘pag nag-aaral ako para sa mga exam, gusto ko na mag-fast forward sa time na nagtatrabaho na ko at ‘di na kailangan mag-review. Pero nak ng kamote, sana pala mas ginalingan ko pa noon. Ang hirap pala maging adult. Siguro, the age of social media really affected me din. Kasi nakikita ko yung mga classmate ko noon na gumaganda na yung buhay nila. Don’t get me wrong, masaya ako para sa kanila. Pero ‘di mo lang din talaga maiwasan na ma-compare yung sarili mo sa kanila. Kasi naman, dati laging mas mataas yung quizzes at periodical exams ko sa kanya pero bakit sya ngayon, ganito na. Chos. Ang bitter ko yata sa part na yan. 

“Shet, ano ba talagang plano ko? Anong game plan ko?”, madalas kong tanong sa sarili ko, pero minsan, kahit alam ko na yung sagot, mas pinipili ko padin mag-overthink hanggang sa mag-hello na naman ang ating friend na si anxiety. Nakaka-dagdag pa sa iisipin ko yung expectations sayo ng ilang tao, na take note, sila sana yung umuunawa sayo. Alam kong hindi ako nag-iisa dito. Minsan, sa mga closest family at friends mo pa ikaw makakarinig ng mga salitang nakaka-baba talaga ng self-esteem. Hindi ko naman nilalahat, pero may ilan.

Sa ngayon, nandito ako sa pahina ng buhay ko na naghahanap parin ako ng sagot sa mga bakit at paano ko. Siguro nga, andito pa ako sa rock bottom, naghahanap ng liwanag, sagot sa katanungan, maayos na daan, kasi naniniwala naman ako na dadating din yung araw na babalikan ko ‘tong phase na ‘to ng buhay ko na mapapangiti ako at sasabihin na, “Biruin mo, nakaya mo ‘yun?”